If ever there was a time to clear your slate and actively begin to create
a new and artful life, this is it. Forgiving yourself for all transgressions —
real or imagined — is an essential first step. You are an evolving human
living in an upheaved world; be merciful and cut yourself some slack, okay?
Forgive me for not sharing fully in your pain
for my own basket has been filled with seedpods of blossoming sadness
and ripened fruit dripping with disappointment
Forgive me if I do not remember your name
or the light aching for release from your crown
for I have been searching too long simply to remember my own name
and the codex that bears the story that is mine
If I have seemed aloof, apart,
for my sense of alienation has weighed heavy for eons,
obstructing byways of true connection
despite my unfettered yearnings for authenticity
Forgive me for random bouts of arrogance
for detours short and long that led me away
from unbridled compassion
for untold moments in which my own inner brilliance blinded me
and left me seemingly no choice but to return to refuge,
for brief bouts of hesitation that kept my heart in check
while a calcified mind carried the reins in its tightened grasp,
For sequestering myself
in the face of emergent tenderness,
For pushing away your outstretched hands
in the name of independence,
for clouding love with judgment spoken or believed
for not peering deeply enough into your frantic eyes
or listening to the muffled mewings beneath your angry words,
for clinging fearfully to the riverbanks
and forgetting to let go and be carried by bands of angels,
For giving to others the care and nurturance I could not muster to give myself
for giving my power away to darkness within and without
for giving undue honoring and withholding true reverence
in the face of fear or interference
for giving excuses and rationalizations time and again,
for giving up moments before everything was given to me,
for choosing fear over love
confusion over clarity
conversation over contemplation
noise over stillness
illusion over truth
For this and more
for every morsel
for the sake of The All
I like this so much that I read it twice. I read it at this blog site as well as the blog site where you provide an audio of this.
I forgive you. I always will, no matter what failings you think you have. You are a child of the universe. You have a little part of me and a little part of everyone else. It is a part of love that helped to create the universe and all that is in it.
Michael J, a mystic in training
(God I missed you)
Rachel, speaking of editing, you may want to edit your audio version of this beautiful palm, this beautiful prayer.
Mical j, a misty in training pants
what a crazy flower.
Not to be the editor (!), but I’m thinking you meant to say “uninhibited” love, not “inhibited.” Either way, I agree that forgiving ourselves is probably harder than forgiving others — though it may not appear that way.
How nice to get your first comment here at Be Whole Now. I hope things are going well for you in your universe. (:
I see from your blog that you’ve been moving through some pretty rough territory. Sending prayers and love your way: may you receive them as the parched earth receives the blessing of sweet rain.
Once again Sister Rachel, you utter the words of the collective universe…the words written on our hearts…forgive me.
You breath new life into my spirit once more with this uninhibited and nurturing prayer.
In Cascading Love…
Rachel…bless you and thank you for this crucial reminder..yet again your every word penetrates the most loving matter of being alive in this moment.
With Profound Respect
A beautiful piece on inhibited love Rachel. I think forgiving ourselves can be a hard thing although it is necessary as forgiving others. I enjoyed the read!